Back in March of this year, so not so long ago, I remember reflecting on an old Beatle song, Let It Be. Yesterday, I was reminded of the importance of those words one more time. I remembered that it is what it is, nothing more or nothing less. In this month, when we are focusing on forgiveness of self and others, I found myself having to practice what I teach. I learned that someone I trusted had failed to tell me they could no longer uphold their part of an agreement. I have to admit, my first reaction was “seriously, you are just now telling me this and you have known for months.” Then the emotional work on my side began as I realized that I was sitting in judgment of this person and the situation and the Beatle song began coming back to me, just let it be.
My conversation with this person had caused me to lose balance temporarily. That did not make either of us right or wrong, it was the Ultimate Creator’s way of helping me in my own journey and maintaining awareness of what the Ultimate Creator was doing for me in that moment. So I had to let it be!
I realized some important things yesterday as I processed all my feelings. One was that I needed to release my own guilt. A part of me was blaming myself for not being more persistent in my communication with this person regarding this situation. I had to release my guilt over having expectations about what the completed project would look like and the experience for my client, who by the way would never know parts of the project had been removed. I had to forgive myself for not being impeccable with my thoughts and words. I had to forgive myself for beating myself up, for being human and having feelings. I had to forgive myself for allowing this incident temporarily throw me off balance and affect my happiness for a small block of time.
It took me a moment and then I began to realize that this is one of those moments where the Ultimate was truly doing something for me. Throughout this project, help has come from unexpected sources and the same was true here. It was becoming what it was supposed to be. Those who were supposed to be a part of this project were and those who were not were not and that was ok. The project was going to be as it was supposed to be and all who will be a part of it will be satisfied.
I had to practice being intentional about giving thanks and focusing on the positives. I began by giving thanks for all the positives in my life and reminding myself that the feelings around this situation would pass if I allowed them to pass. Then I found myself singing that old Beatle Song
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
These words of wisdom reminded me one more time to let it be and know that it was what it was supposed to be. When I began to wonder about the situation and seeking a guarantee, the words of wisdom once again came to me in the chorus of a song
Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be
As I sat here thinking about this, the last piece of wisdom came through what it seemed like a never ending flow of birthday wishes on Facebook and the words of Kool and the Gang reminding me that
There's a party goin' on right here
A celebration to last throughout the years
So bring your good times and your laughter too
We gonna celebrate your party with you
Come on now, celebration
Let's all celebrate and have a good time
Celebration
We gonna celebrate and have a good time
So I turned on some happy music, giving thanks for the awesome life I have been blessed with and focusing on celebrating all the goodness and memories with which my friends were filling my inbox and voice mail.
So today, I am focusing on the party that is goin’ on right here and remembering that it will last my entire life if I bring my good time and my laughter, if I remember to let it be and that what will be, will be. Que sera, sera.