Dear God,
So today is November 7th. It is hard for me to believe that in some respects I turned 7 days old today. It is hard to believe that on November 1, I almost died because both my kidneys became obstructed at the same time and I could not pee. When I think back to last Saturday, it seems so surreal. I still remember the emergency room doctor coming in and telling me I was in acute renal failure and my creatinine levels were 10.77, far above what those who need to be on dialysis have. I remember thinking how did this happen? How did I go from having no kidney problems, to being in acute failure over night? The reality is that I will never know what caused both my kidneys to become obstructed at once, preventing me from being able to pee. What I do know is this. You ensured that all my needs were met. You sent me to the emergency room when I needed to and surrounded me with people who were able to save my life and restore my ability to pee. Two days later, my creatinine level was back down to normal and in some respects it was easy for me to think this was all a dream, but I know it was not.
I wish I could say that I moved through this whole process without fear, but I am sure there were moments when I experienced those waves of fear. Then I released them and walked in the fullness of the knowledge that all was going to be well and it was. It was not until after I was out of the woods, so to speak, that others explained to me just how toxic and sick I had been. The odds of both kidneys becoming obstructed at one time is a rarity. The odds are so great that I was asked if the medical staff could write articles about me. So here, I was being asked to be of service and of course, I said yes. If my going through all this will help save someone else’s life then I am eternally grateful.
However, I have come to realize that this whole process that I am going through is not just about the kidney stones, but about the need to continue the work I have been doing in my own life of blasting my mental, emotional, and spiritual stones apart which have kept me from growing and evolving. My surgeon can perform procedures to remove the physical stones in my kidneys, but it has been through the work I have been doing and my relationship with you that I have been able to pass the stones which have weighed me down for 58 years.
On November 13, my physical stones will be transformed, but the stones, which I have been carrying within me, have already undergone the process of being removed. Once all the work is done, I know I will be vibrating at a higher frequency and carrying with me significantly less baggage.